Healing the Feminine Within

Over the years, we move through so many versions of ourselves: from little girl, to teenager, to young woman, and into adulthood. Along the way, we don’t just grow older—we grow through experiences. We are shaped by our families, the friends we attract, the partners we choose, and the paths we walk. Life continues, and so does our becoming.

For many years, I tried to become the woman I truly desired to be. It wasn’t easy. I had dreams—big ones—and if you know me, you know I’m not someone who gives up. But as a sensitive soul, an empath, as some would say, I carried patterns that were imprinted in me through generations. There was a lack of strong, supportive masculine energy in my lineage, and over time, it became clear that I never really felt safe enough to step fully into my femininity.

Now, at 40, I can see that for most of my life I was looking after others without even realising I was neglecting my own needs. I didn’t know how to ask for what I wanted. I didn’t even think I should want more. I grew up in a family where there was never enough, and when there was something for me, it was often given away because someone else needed it more. That pattern stayed with me.

Without realising it, I was accepting crumbs and truly believing that others always needed more than I did. It could have been anything—time, love, opportunities, or simple pleasures.

So here we are in 2026, and I ask myself: how was it possible that I didn’t notice I was neglecting my own desires for so many years?

Now I understand. Our programming runs deep—into our subconscious mind and our nervous system. If we believe that asking for more will lead to disappointment, we stop asking. If we don’t believe we’re worthy, we stop desiring. We convince ourselves there’s no point, or we feel guilty for wanting something just for our own joy.

So I share this with you—if any part of this story feels familiar, know that you’re not alone. And maybe this is the moment to ask yourself what you truly desire, and whether you’ve been giving yourself permission to receive it.